You took me for granted. And though I know you are not doing okay without me, it still hurts to see you pretend that you are.
Your current recklessness shows me that all my struggles to help you change were all for nothing. I knew I didn’t have the power to help you change, only you do. I just wish you would have tried.
I had some strange dreams today.
In one dream, I was feeling a lot of negativity, then realized I was dreaming and pulled myself out of that dream, as if I had woken up, but I continued dreaming something different.
The negativity I was feeling while I was talking to some people in my dreams, and they couldn’t hear me, and I was screaming, but I was hardly audible and I was feeling so frustrated and felt I was sick of saying what I was trying to say and it was literally wearing my energy down.
She’s a very sleepy girl .. Don’t bring her to party
First she gets her blanky .. Then she gets her pilla
Then she gets some Z’s in the front seat of your hummer
Then she gets some Z’s in the front seat of your hummer
Clues that your libido thermostat has been readjusted would be: you feel restless and dissatisfied more of the time; want kinkier sex with your mate; find your mate less attractive or compelling than the Internet; need more extreme material; and so forth. Experts call this effect “tolerance.” It can indicate an addiction process at work in the brain.
According to a 2007 study, mere exposure to images of sexy females causes a man to devalue his real-life partner. He rates her lower not only on attractiveness, but also on warmth and intelligence. Also, after pornography consumption, subjects in a 2006 study reported less satisfaction with their intimate partner—including the partner’s affection, appearance, sexual curiosity, and performance. Moreover, they assigned increased importance to sex without emotional involvement.
Apparently porn is like fast-food. Too much of either temporarily but unhealthfully fills a biological need. It sets the stage for unrealistic expectations and removes the realities of dealing with the needs of another person.
Once we have true virtual-reality porn, our species is going to die out. We won’t take ourselves out with a nuclear winter or climate change. It’ll be porn that finally does it.
You don’t know me. I am so much deeper than you’d ever expect. I’d blow your mind. You just don’t care enough. That’s what I have to accept.
Everyday I try to be optimistic about life and tell myself, “Maybe tomorrow will be a better day.” Still waiting for a better tomorrow.
So many changes bring along so many emotions. I am excited and nervous. Ecstatic and terrified. I am hopeful yet apprehensive, ready for some changes, and sad to see this part of my life officially come to an end. As I take on this next chapter, I must remember that every experience can be a learning one if you allow it and I can only hope that things will only go up from here.
This past year has been one of the hardest of my life, filled with love and loss, over and over again. I’ve learned so much about myself and about life, and it truly overwhelms me to see how much change I have been through in just one years time. I see myself as a more positive person with a much different perspective on life.
I’ve been working on this whole happiness thing for quite some time, and though I don’t quite have the ingredients, I think I know the recipe.
